I recently finished writing my latest manuscript, but now, I’m at a sort of stop. I’m still querying my paranormal mystery, but lately, I feel like it might need a professional editing in order to make it more publishable – I mean, it’s gone through seventy edits already, but now I feel like it needs that final push into the inside of the publishing world in order to make it marketable. Now, without any money whatsoever, that isn’t possible, so it’s being queried, but I somehow feel like it won’t ever go anywhere at this point. I’m also thinking that I won’t be putting it through anymore twitter pitching contests because it’s been seen since August 2014, and either it’s already been rejected by the publishers and agents participating, or the ones that I haven’t queried to aren’t checking those contests – so #DVpit will be the last time MY SOUL TO GIVE is entered into pitching contests.
As for my dark fantasy romance, FROZEN HEARTS, it’s ready to query (in my opinion), but I can’t seem to write a synopsis for this one. I mean, it was challending enough to condense 89K into a one-page summary, but 105K…I just can’t get it right at all. And with the previous manuscript, I had help, here and there, and also had a little more money back then and paid about 75$ to get it into basic good shape. But now, again with no funds, I find myself stuck. I’ve read a lot of online tips, tricks and advice on how to write synopsis, I get the idea, I know what my basic story is, but it’s still not coming to me for some reason. So I had decided I’ll write some pitches for this manuscript, to start entering this one in pitching contests instead, but I’m coming up even more blank than with the synopsis! Either it sounds boring, or there’s more than 140 characters. It’s…frustrating, to say the least.
And as for the finished manuscript (another dark fantasy romance), it’s going through beta readings, so for now, I’m just leaving it alone. I’m also unsure about this one since it received a negative feedback, and I’m wondering if I made a mistake in writing it in first-person POV (my first time, really). The constant pondering on whether that whole 105K was a mistake is eating away at me.
I was writing a new paranormal mystery (first-person POV, unreliable narrtor), and the no-future of my paranormal mystery hangs over me as my dark fantasy manuscript lies there with no synopsis or pitches, and my contsant self-doubt about the newest manuscript is almost crippling me into not knowing what the hell to do anymore. I can’t seem to write at all because I just feel the others looming over me like giant failures that’ll never get published because I write in genres that aren’t good for the market, and I don’t have the money to take that extra, final steps to have them edited professionally for publishing.
So now, I’m at a standstill, and I’m not writing. At all. *sigh*